A few weeks ago I had a bit of an epiphany. And I tweeted it, because some epiphanies are tweet-worthy.
If I’ve learned anything this year it’s that I’m afraid of everything I want most. Maybe 2014 will be my time to change that.
I think I’ve let my sense of pride and my willingness to put effort into things slip a bit since graduating from college. It’s been nice to have a break from the stress and the homework and the papers and just trying so hard. But as the months since graduation have passed, I’ve been feeling increasingly restless and unsatisfied with sitting by and letting things happen to me.
I’ve also learned this year that I’m not a very grounded person. I often have my head in the clouds. I have pictures in my mind of what I want my life to look like or the way things should be, but I’m not very good at taking the practical steps that it takes to get there. I just want to be there (wherever “there” is) right now and it makes it hard for me to focus on the now. There’s so much stuff that I have to do between here and there, and it’s scary. And that fear prevents me from even trying or from being proactive and taking control of my life.
Shortly after tweeting that above epiphany, my friend Ellie replied and said that she felt like she was in the same boat. And that “2014 is going to be our year.” I think she’s right, because her reply made me feel all kinds of motivated to grab 2014 by the horns and make the most of it, and to come up with some tangible goals for this year.
I’ve noticed that a lot of the goals floating around my head center around owning where I’m at in my life right now. I’m 23. I’m an adult. I need to start acting like it. So I’ve decided to name my goals list “Erin learns how to be an adult.”
Here we go!
This year I want to:
- Get a really clear sense of who I am and what I value. This can help me figure out what kind of job I want, what I want to go back to school for, and more. I want to craft some kind of personal statement early on in the year.
- Start seriously considering how I’m going to continue my education. I know I want SOMETHING more than just my Bachelor’s degree, and I need to start thinking about how I’m going to get there. Start checking out programs that I’m interested in, contacting schools, figuring out how much it’s going to cost. I might not return to school this year, but I at least want a sense of what I’ll be up against when I do go back.
- Create weekly priority and goal lists. SCHEDULE SCHEDULE SCHEDULE. I need to structure my free time.
- Apply for at least two jobs a week
- Find a place or two to volunteer for as long as I’m still at home. I don’t know yet if ministry is where my calling is, but I’ve been feeling compelled to find out. Volunteering is a good way not just to test my strengths and weaknesses, but also to do so in a way that gives back to my community. Plus it gives me something more to put on my resume.
- Develop a more disciplined prayer and spiritual life
- Spend less time on the internet and more time with my nose in a book
- Eat better and start working out (I need at least ONE stereotypical goal on my list, right?)
- Develop a budget (when I get a job, of course)
- Decide what my “style” is so I can get serious about building up a solid wardrobe for both work and play (also when I get a job and am actually earning money). I’m finally realizing that fashion is a worthwhile investment and an extension of who I am. I’m a bit of a late bloomer when it comes to that kind of thing and I want to have as much fun with it as I can.
- Hang out with people more. I need people in my life, which is a hard thing for me to admit sometimes, because asking people if they want to hang out is kind of a vulnerable thing for me to do and I suck at vulnerability.
- Update my blog, Gravatar, and LinkedIn with spiffy new headshots/portraits (again, when I can afford it)
- Maybe start dating?? (!!!) That’s probably the scariest thing on this list, honestly.
- If I remember, create a better tagging/categorizing system for this blog for easier navigation
I might add more to this list, but this seems like a good start. Let’s go, 2014!
What about you? Do you have any big plans or dreams you’d like to accomplish this year? What are some of your goals for 2014?